It’s ok to feel this way….
Have you ever had a moment where you just cried in public? That was me today. It’s been a crazy 48 hours. We had a wicked storm that left us with no power for several hours and a flooded basement with damage to our new home. In the midst of all of the chaos from sucking the water out of the basement Sophia started to not feel well. It came on sudden and so did the nasty fever. My husband and I who were already exhausted from the day’s events didn’t get much sleep watching her and checking her temperature every hour that night. Yesterday she seemed to get worse as I monitored her per the doctors orders. I was doing everything I could to keep her hydrated and keep the fever down. We continued to deal with our flooded basement and I just kept thinking “I feel overwhelmed but I don’t have time to react!” Last night Sophia became stomach sick which led to another sleepless night… and ultimately a doctor visit today. I carried my sick little toddler with her very high fever into the doctor… and the nurse looked at me and asked… is she ok? I lost it and started to cry…. ugly public cry. I didn’t know if she was ok… she seemed so sick. As a mom you just wish you could flip a switch and fix it right then and there. I can’t make her better. I’ve watched her just lay on the couch for days which isn’t her typical toddler self…. and now she is laying in my arms. So yes mamas I cried in public today. I don’t know if it was my fear, or exhaustion, or the fact that my house was flooded…. I’m not sure but I just cried. I sat there in the doctor’s tiny office with sickness all over me … because Sophia doesn’t tolerate tests well… crying. The doctor came in and looked at me. She said it’s ok to feel this way. I stopped. She said yes she’s sick, we are going to figure out what it is and give her medicine. You’re keeping her fever down… you’re a good mom. You’re doing everything right. I said I can’t believe I cried. She smiled and said we are all moms and we have all been where you are today… remember it’s ok to feel this way.